Thursday, March 27, 2014

Gone by not forgotten

Hi all.  I promised my self a long time ago that I would never apologize for not blogging.  I blog to share my journey.  I blog to process my thoughts.  But I don't blog because I have to fulfill a schedule. 

Last time I posted, I shared that my FIL had been diagnosed with terminal liver cancer.  He was diagnosed on February 1.  We had 4 more weeks with him, and entered Heaven on March 4th.  Our family is struggling to find our new normal.

Health wise, I have been on the back burner.  During the weeks before and after his death, people brought food, and I ate whatever they brought.  It's been three weeks, and I need to back on track. We are going to be out of town this weekend, so maybe next week....

I haven't been exercising at all either. I gave up my gym membership because I knew I wouldn't be able to use it while Dad was on hospice care. And, as much as I love my Zumba teacher, we are probably going to switch to a gym that has an indoor pool so my husband and son (who have problems with their legs) will be able to exercise.

I have been gone, but I have not forgotten.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014


 It's been a while since I've been here, and I've been wanting to update everyone.  But life has been crazy (crazier than usual!) lately.

I was overwhelmed at the beginning of the year.  And that was before the craziness came in.  During the first couple of weeks of the year, we had two people (adults) we knew who decided they could no longer face the physical pain they were in.  They both chose to give up the fight.  One was about a month older than me.

Then we had a school shooting in town.  Fortunately there were only two injuries (no deaths).  The shooter was not a gang banger drug addict from a broken home.  He was a good kid, from an intact family. This is a family we know well as we attend the same church.  This really rocked our church and our community.

Then, my uncle was diagnosed with Stage IV pancreatic cancer.

Two weeks later, my father-in-law (who has has been sick since February) was diagnosed with an aggressive form of liver cancer that is not treatable.  We share a home with my in-laws.  

Both my FIL and my uncle are in hospice care.

The day after my FIL's diagnosis, my aunt died after a long battle with dementia and other health issues. (She had been in hospice care for a while).  Her husband is not doing well.  And another aunt has been in the hospital.

As you can tell, life has been overwhelming.  I am lucky to make it to the gym once a week.  I'm trying to get moving with walking again.

The good news in all of this is that I am maintaining my weight loss.  No new lower numbers. But at least the scale is staying (pretty much) in place.


Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy New Year

I know I haven't been posting much lately.  Life has been a bit crazy.  Three generations of men in my home have been very sick.  My schedule has been overwhelming.  And I got a bit off track.  I'm happy to report, however, that my recent detour did not lead to derailment!  My lowest recorded weight was the end of September at 247.3.  Today, I weighed in at 249.4.  I consider that a success.  I have not been consistent with my eating.  And, while I haven't totally binged, I have enjoyed more than my fair share of treats over the holiday.  I have averaged about 1-2 workouts a week.

Honestly, I think my body needed a bit of a break.  (Someone referred to it a "maintain break".)  When I started one year ago, I went full-on, no holds barred, over the top.  Which I needed to do.  But I could not maintain that pace indefinitely.  

I am back to work, but I'm going to have to figure some things out. I love Zumba and my Zumba teacher. But 6:30 every night makes family time difficult.  I'm hoping to still go at least once a week, but I need to find other things to do.  They may not be as fun as Zumba, but they will have to do. 

I still have a long way to go, but I am proud of progress so far.

This year: 
I have lost 57.1 pounds!
I have lost 8 inches from my chest, my waist, and my hips.
I have gone from size 4X pants (28s were too small) to pants ranging from 20-24.
I have gone from 3XL t-shirts to regular XL shirts.
I ran my first 5K in 50 minutes.'ve been waiting for pictures!  The first two are both in my"before and after" outfit.  The second set includes me in clothes that currently fit.

Sunday, December 1, 2013

What a difference a year makes!

I've mentioned that my brother's illness was the catalyst for the start of my journey to health. Here's an update.

Thanksgiving marked one year from when my oldest brother walked into the hospital with blood sugars over 800, pneumonia, and fever over 108 degrees for 5 hours. He was admitted in the ICU and put into a medically induced coma. My husband and I drove for almost 24 hours straight in hopes of seeing my brother alive one more time.

His entire body was shutting down: septic shock, blood born staph, congestive heart failure, MERSA, and organ shut down. He was on a ventilator and dialysis. 

The doctor gave him a 10-20% chance of survival. This was not recovery--the doctor didn't expect him to recover.  We left California not knowing if he would survive.

When they woke him up from the coma (it took four days!) he realized his best friend was really the love of his life (she had been there all along). They scheduled a tracheotomy--which meant an end to his singing. But the was able to fight through.

After 3 weeks in ICU and 45 days in the hospital, he was released. It's been a slow process, and he's had some difficulties along the way. But he not only survived, he is growing stronger every day.

The day Shawn went into the hospital, his daughter found out she was pregnant. She had had multiple miscarriages after the birth of her daughter 5 years before. Sadly, she miscarried before her Daddy left the ICU.

Today, just over a year after that fateful day....Makenzie Elizabeth was born. My brother not only survived, be he lived to welcome his new granddaughter. And my niece has been blessed with a daughter.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013


I discovered this month the benefit of well fitting clothing.  I  have not really lost any weight in 2 months.  I hit just under 250 on September 6th.  Today, I weighed in at 249.3.  While I wish I had lost weight the past two months, I am thrilled that my number has not gone up.  Life has become complicated lately.  In October, I spent a week working the Eastern New Mexico State Fair (raising money for my band student's account).  I also spent a week in training in Albuquerque.  This meant eating out every meal.  And no time to exercise---except for the night we all went dancing together!

Anyway, while in Albuquerque, I bought some XL Old Navy shirts.  In the past two weeks, I have had more compliments and comments about my weight loss than I've had all year. 

One of my favorite cheerleaders (who sees me regularly) sent me this note on Facebook:
I didn't catch you after church yesterday...but I just had to tell you that you are looking sooooooooo good! I know the road is hard at times...but this is building such perseverance in you and the fact that you are sticking w/it and being faithful to the God who built your "temple"...I think He's so pleased Love ya!!
Another, who I haven't since before the transformation began (she moved away), sent this after a posted a picture from Halloween:
You look amazing!! What are you doing?
Even my boss' mother-in-law (who attends my church) caught me coming in on Sunday and commented on my weight loss.

So the moral of the story is:
When you have lost a bunch of weight--make sure you update your wardrobe!!

The first picture is a face comparison. Our church uses a networking software program called Church Community Builder (CCB). About a year or so ago, I added a picture. Last week, I decided it was time to update the picture on my profile.
The lighting is awful, but here's a comparison. The blue shirt is one of the Old Navy XL's I mentioned.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013


I'm in Albuquerque this week for training. One of the things we enjoy when we go to trainings is the ability to shop in place we don't have at home. (And we don't have many choices, so it doesn't take much to get us excited!!)

We went to Ross first. I didn't find anything that sparked my interest. Next we went to Old Navy. Other than the plus size workout clothes I got online, I've never been able to wear any if their clothes.

Since I've lost almost 60 pounds, I decided to try on some XXL shirts. I went into the dressing room with about a dozen different styles.

After trying on not one, but three, XXL shirts, I realized I needed a different size. They were all too big!!!

I went back out and collected an assortment of XLs. A couple of them didn't fit, but most if the XLs were perfect. I'm taking about "normal sizes" XL. Not"big girl" 1X!!

I walked into Old Navy in a 4X. I walked out with a bag of XLs.

Baggy 4X

Well fitting XL (yes, my spare tire needs some work, but it's getting smaller!!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013


It has been almost a month since I've posted.  It's been a crazy time.  Between sick family members, football (and marching band) season, and crazy work stuff....I've been busy.

I didn't even get my monthly pictures taken yet. (I usually do them the first Saturday of the month).  I haven't been to Zumba as often as I'd like, and I haven't run in weeks.

But today, my weight was 248.1.  Down almost 60 pounds.  There hasn't been much movement this month, but I'm thankful it moved the right direction.

So, what's the 44 all about?  Even Google knows what today is!

Today is my 44th birthday.