Saturday, February 28, 2015

Since you've seen me..

Since you've seen me, I've still be struggling to find my motivation.  I was determined to get things moving again, but life keeps striking.  January included two (3 day) trips to Albuquerque.  The first time was to take my Mama back to the airport after a visit over Christmas.  The second was to take my daughter to a doctor appointment. (Bad weather kept us there longer). Then the flu hit--and it hit me hard. We have also had more snow than usual this year.  Today I was supposed to run a 10K but it was cancelled due to snow and ice.

But not all is lost....

Since you've seen me, I ran my first trail run. It was a 5K cross country run. I even medalled. I got third place in the women's division.  In the interest of full disclosure--there were only three women in the race. And the other two beat my time considerably.  But I finished!!


Since you've seen me I ran my first color run. We actually crashed it. (shhh).  I didn't get registered ahead of time, and there was no on-site registration. So we just ran/walked anyway.  My beautiful daughter Heather loved it! We are planning to do another color run next month, and my younger son is joining us.

Since you've seen me, I ran I a 10K.  That's right. 6.2 miles.  Hilly miles at that!  (My FitBit gave me 13 flights of stairs!) It was a small race--a community service project for a high school homeschooler. I really doubted whether I could do it. I had never run more than 4 miles at one time. And never on hills. And we started before the sun even came up.

The organizer gave me "permission" to stop at the halfway point and call it a 5K.  I was debating, but about 1/4 mile before the turn around, Mandisa sang in my headphones, 

You're an overcomer
Stay in the fight ‘til the final round
You're not going under
‘Cause God is holding you right now
You might be down for a moment
Feeling like it's hopeless
That's when He reminds You
That you're an overcomer
You're an overcomer
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As I reached the turn around point, I saw at least two runners nearing the finish line.  I kept running. I was afraid to walk because I thought I might fall down if I stopped.  As I got closer to the end, Mandisa again sang in my ear:

The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me, this is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you
As I approached the final 1/4 mile, I noticed the other runners heading my way.  The walked up and then ran home with me.  That was so encouraging.  My final time was 1 hour and 45 minutes.  Some of those runners had waited over an hour to finish with me.

Since you've seen me, I got new shoes.  In the two years since I started running, I have worn out three pairs of Brooks. I wear them every day (helps with the plantar fascitis). See the white spots on my black shoe? Those are my socks poking through!

Since you've seen me, I haven't lost any more weight---BUT, I have maintained my loss. Considering the year that I had--I'm okay with that.  I'll sign off with the shirt my sister sent me.

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Life is about to get very busy

 We are a week into August.  Where did this summer go?  My oldest son (Cameron) and his Grandma come back from Idaho and Washington on Monday. I meet my youngest son's (Aidan) teacher on Tuesday, and he starts school on Thursday.  Cameron and Heather officially start school on the following Monday, but they have some testing and orientation meetings this week.  

And John and I start school a week later.  John has 8 classes (2 semesters) left to finish his bachelor's degree that he started 25 years ago.  I will start my master's degree. We will both be at Liberty University Online in the Life Coaching program.  Since I will be going part time, John and I should finish at the same time. (May 2016---about the time Cameron graduates from high school).

It is going to be a challenge working full time, home schooling two kids, and taking a graduate level class.  It is going to be even more challenging continuing with my weight loss.  I've started walking/running again.  I've been out 3 times this week.  Each time I went 2 1/2 to 3 miles.  (RunKeeper says I did 8.6 miles this week).

We have a new gym opening up soon called Fitness for $10.  The best thing (besides the price!!) is that they are less than 1/2 a mile from my house!!  There are three other gyms in town, and all of them are about 10 miles from home.  Which makes it harder to workout before taking kids to school.  Or going back out after I've come home and had dinner.  

I'm not sure how I'm going to manage it all, but I will find a way. Honestly, I was hoping to be at my goal by now, but sometimes life happens.  And for me to be maintain my weight loss has to be enough for now.


Something is working

And honestly, it's not really me!

I've had several comments lately about my appearance. I am proud (as I mentioned in my last post) that I have maintained my 60 pound loss. And I have started walking sporadically. But this picture shows some changes.  I notice the my hips look a little smaller.  And I guess my chest is smaller because the neck is looser.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Back in the saddle...

It's been almost a year (End of September) since I hit my lowest weight (under 250) in this journey. By October, life started getting in the way. In January, I attended my last Zumba class. I let my gym membership lapse. This time it was death, not life, that intervened. As I mentioned previously, my father-in-law was diagnosed with cancer and died just 5 weeks later.  My priorities were on taking care of my family.

Amazingly, my weight has not gone up! This morning I weighed in at 247!

Over the past month, I've started walking again. Not as much  as if like, more than I did the month before. Life continues to offer resistance. My kids are at VBS every night this week. So last night I decided to walk while they were at church. Just as I got to the track, the pastor's wife called. My daughter was sick.  Plans had to change. Tonight, I did make it to the track. But unlike last night's cool, overcast temperature, it was HOT! I checked the temperature AFTER I walked 2 miles.  Oops!

Honestly, I don't know how fast my progress will be. But it will be forward.  Next month, in addition to working full time, I will be homeschooling two kids (6th grade and 11th grade). If that is t enough, I'm going back to school! After almost 25 years, I'm going for my masters!!

I don't know how often I'll make it here to blog, but I'll stop by when I can.

Friday, June 6, 2014

Blood Work and Trying to Find my Motivation

Before I started my weight loss journey (December 2012) my doctor ran blood work.  My cholesterol, which has been borderline for years, was 186.  After 6 months of consistent exercise, a healthy diet, and losing 50 pounds, we tested again July 2013).  It was 228.  I was very discouraged, but agreed to start Lipitor.  In December, it dropped to 186 (close to where it had been before losing the weight).  From October to January, my exercise was very limited.  Since February (when my FIL was diagnosed with liver cancer), I have not had a single workout.  And my diet has not been good.  I have maintained (within about 5 pounds) my weight loss.  Today, I got the results of my latest cholesterol test.  I had to double check that I was reading the right line.  134. That's like normal people level!

In case you are interested.....I have been really struggling to get back on track lately.  From October to November, I was able to at least do some exercise a couple of times a week.  Since my FIL's diagnosis on February, I have not been to the gym (let my membership lapse) or taken a walk. (Actually, I think I did one walk around the block at work.)  My eating hasn't been great either.  

But the amazing thing is that I have been able to maintain most of my loss.  

I've been having some weird health issues.  For the past few months, I have been exhausted just going about my normal day.  I've had issues with heart palpitations.  I had a workup of my heart (ultrasound looks good and I passed the treadmill test).  Nobody seems to know what is wrong.  I keep trying to get back out there.  And I will.  I'm not going back.  I just seem to be stuck here.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Gone by not forgotten

Hi all.  I promised my self a long time ago that I would never apologize for not blogging.  I blog to share my journey.  I blog to process my thoughts.  But I don't blog because I have to fulfill a schedule. 

Last time I posted, I shared that my FIL had been diagnosed with terminal liver cancer.  He was diagnosed on February 1.  We had 4 more weeks with him, and entered Heaven on March 4th.  Our family is struggling to find our new normal.

Health wise, I have been on the back burner.  During the weeks before and after his death, people brought food, and I ate whatever they brought.  It's been three weeks, and I need to back on track. We are going to be out of town this weekend, so maybe next week....

I haven't been exercising at all either. I gave up my gym membership because I knew I wouldn't be able to use it while Dad was on hospice care. And, as much as I love my Zumba teacher, we are probably going to switch to a gym that has an indoor pool so my husband and son (who have problems with their legs) will be able to exercise.

I have been gone, but I have not forgotten.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014


 It's been a while since I've been here, and I've been wanting to update everyone.  But life has been crazy (crazier than usual!) lately.

I was overwhelmed at the beginning of the year.  And that was before the craziness came in.  During the first couple of weeks of the year, we had two people (adults) we knew who decided they could no longer face the physical pain they were in.  They both chose to give up the fight.  One was about a month older than me.

Then we had a school shooting in town.  Fortunately there were only two injuries (no deaths).  The shooter was not a gang banger drug addict from a broken home.  He was a good kid, from an intact family. This is a family we know well as we attend the same church.  This really rocked our church and our community.

Then, my uncle was diagnosed with Stage IV pancreatic cancer.

Two weeks later, my father-in-law (who has has been sick since February) was diagnosed with an aggressive form of liver cancer that is not treatable.  We share a home with my in-laws.  

Both my FIL and my uncle are in hospice care.

The day after my FIL's diagnosis, my aunt died after a long battle with dementia and other health issues. (She had been in hospice care for a while).  Her husband is not doing well.  And another aunt has been in the hospital.

As you can tell, life has been overwhelming.  I am lucky to make it to the gym once a week.  I'm trying to get moving with walking again.

The good news in all of this is that I am maintaining my weight loss.  No new lower numbers. But at least the scale is staying (pretty much) in place.