Blood Work and Trying to Find my Motivation

Before I started my weight loss journey (December 2012) my doctor ran blood work.  My cholesterol, which has been borderline for years, was 186.  After 6 months of consistent exercise, a healthy diet, and losing 50 pounds, we tested again July 2013).  It was 228.  I was very discouraged, but agreed to start Lipitor.  In December, it dropped to 186 (close to where it had been before losing the weight).  From October to January, my exercise was very limited.  Since February (when my FIL was diagnosed with liver cancer), I have not had a single workout.  And my diet has not been good.  I have maintained (within about 5 pounds) my weight loss.  Today, I got the results of my latest cholesterol test.  I had to double check that I was reading the right line.  134. That's like normal people level!

In case you are interested.....I have been really struggling to get back on track lately.  From October to November, I was able to at least do some exercise a couple of times a week.  Since my FIL's diagnosis on February, I have not been to the gym (let my membership lapse) or taken a walk. (Actually, I think I did one walk around the block at work.)  My eating hasn't been great either.  

But the amazing thing is that I have been able to maintain most of my loss.  

I've been having some weird health issues.  For the past few months, I have been exhausted just going about my normal day.  I've had issues with heart palpitations.  I had a workup of my heart (ultrasound looks good and I passed the treadmill test).  Nobody seems to know what is wrong.  I keep trying to get back out there.  And I will.  I'm not going back.  I just seem to be stuck here.
 
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